off the track and on with the course

i watched an ad for the Indy 500 this weekend. I'm not a race car fan, probably because i don't understand it, yet i do understand this; cars are driven around a track so many times, i can go out for lunch, stop at the laundry mat and pick up groceries before they are done.

i don't know how they don't go insane looking at the same thing over and over again. but it hit me...i come around my own track of sinful choices and dumb moves just as often. Every time i see a decision before me its as if i haven't seen it. then the consequences come and it is very clear 'i have been here before'.

I'm bored with the relentless monotony of choosing 'self' over Christ, as bored as i get watching the cars race. I'm sick of running around and around thinking the checkered flag is there and i have won, when in all reality, i have not.

Its my own fault though, i choose it. and i can not blame the old self, chained to sin, has made me do it - i am not the old man. i am the new man - capable of choosing right and guilty of choosing wrong.

i read through Romans again - Romans 14 talks about the weaker and the stronger christian and how we accept the weaker and respect the stronger...but i have sat to long as just the accepted i want to be respected.

respected especially by myself. i know Christ is unconditional but i am not.

I'm not making laps anymore i am racing in a direction now.